Inhale. “Ok, what the heck do I need to do today? Oh shoot, I think I left a load of laundry in the washer.”
Exhale. “Did I ever text my cousin back?”
Inhale. “Why do my hormones make me such a bitch? What time is my dentist appointment again?”
Exhale. “Oh ya. I am meditating. Breathe Ashlee, breathe.”
That is exactly how my meditation was this morning. For a whole 20 minutes, I may have caught 2-3 minutes of calm, quiet bliss. The other 17 was filled with my racing mind. I know when I write these words I am not the ONLY Mama out there that has the constant Todo list running in the back of their head. Even when I sit down to “loose” my thoughts, sometimes I feel like meditation can be entering a quiet room just so you can be with your thoughts. Quite frankly, that scares the piss out of some.
The expectation that meditation or any spiritual practice for that matter is bliss 24/7 is a built up illusion and fantasy that we have made up. Showing up and simply doing the Thing will prove otherwise to that “story” we tell ourselves that meditation is. Just get your cute little tush on the cush, close your eyes, and breathe. Let the rest happen for itself. That, my friend is trust. That, is surrender…surrendering to your practice of personal growth.
Cultivating a Spiritual Practice of ANY kind is crucial for our personal growth. We are beautiful human beings with SO many layers upon layers of what actually makes us, us. Our skin, our eyes, our hair, our emotions, our feelings, our thoughts, our ideas, our personality, our character, the way we act, the way we talk, our accent, and then all the way down to our experiences we have had that has molded us more into who we are today. Having a spiritual practice of any kind means reading, meditating, yoga, exercise, journaling, painting. Anything that connects you more to your Spirit is is Spiritual Practice.
When I sit to meditate, yes, I have mornings like I do today where my mind will not shut up! Then, I have those days where I fall into this space of quiet bliss where there is no time, no judgement, no thoughts or emotions…it’s just simply the space… and I. When we experience these moments of bliss, even if it is for let’s say 2-3 minutes, we are creating a stronger bond with our Spirit, or what I like to call the truest you you can be.
Living from that space, from the heart or from your Spirit…is ultimately how we strive for living this life. Then, life happens. Shifts and stages happen in your life, building blocks around your heart and trapping emotions within your body. When we experience a bump in the road, we often times fall of the wagon. It’s the constant practice of showing up that helps you SHOW UP when it matters the most. We all do it. It’s not uncommon to happen. Going in and out of practices and falling down over and over again. That’s not what matters. What’s matters is how and when we get back up. What matters is that we get back up at all. I am here to tell you…sister, go for it. Here’s my hand. Get back up, and give yourself the time to practice to connecting more to that beautiful and sexy Self you KNOW you are.
THAT is why cultivating a Spiritual Practice is Crucial for us women and our sanity. I say that with a smile on my face, because we all have a little inner cray that can come out. ((I’m not the only one, right?!?!)) My practice has hushed down my inner cray and allowed that big beautiful sexy self to come forth more and more. So here, is YOUR permission. Finish reading this, and take 2 minutes for yourself. I do realize that you may be reading this at work, or right before bed, or possibly taking a poop! BUT, please please please, for the sake of all things in life, give yourself two minutes to breathe. You deserve it. Let your breath take you to the center of your Spirit where that Sexy Beautiful Self is…and bust her out!